Profound thanks for the great, great Fusion 1-3 workshops. I thought they were taught at such an astonishingly deep level and am grateful for your ability to teach it with such respect for where each of us are.

Fusion has opened so much for me, it's difficult to describe. I feel I have long needed tools to deal with energy arising inside and energy projected at me from others. In prior years, they have knocked me far off my center.

In Fusion #1 workshop I noticed as I expanded the earth shen/pearl to embrace each of the other pearls, they began to reveal bits of them self. I began to get some sense of the depth and age of the blue, kidney shen, the exhilaration, delicacy, and energy of the green liver shen and, to me the overwhelming power of the heart spirit. As the heart shen began to open and reveal the power of real love, I had to stop, not seemingly ready to accept a full glimpse.

I am again on "speaking terms" with my lung shen. I greatly benefit from "downloading" trust, love, courage, kindness, and wisdom from the universe when I need it. I didn't know there was such bounty and generosity surrounding us.

Periodically, I have experienced an "opening" of my consciousness in which I am able to take in and sit and embrace the opposites in my life. This has taken me to places of great quiet and peace, a feeling that in Taoist terms might be balanced or harmonious. Some of the fun has been that everything seems lightly balanced, and susceptible to falling to one side or the other, yet has stayed with me through a variety of stressful stimuli. Perhaps it is not so fragile.

I look forward to studying the higher alchemy formulas, realizing how little I know.

Thanks again – you have my greatest respect as a teacher. It is a privilege to have been in your Fusion classes. I know you were carrying the energetic burden of the entire group, and yet you were able to lead the class so beautifully.

Dana B., Houston
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I have been shocked and astonished at how powerful this Fusion process is! Shocked – at how much “stuff” that I thought was resolved, but it all came floating back up to the surface during my first Fusion meditation. Some painful old relationships that I thought were buried were still haunting me. They were probably responsible for an undefinable sense of anxiety I’ve been suffering from for years.

I am Astonished at how quickly these deep issues are being resolved. After only a few days of practice I feel so much clearer and more peaceful. I know there is more to go, but thank you and the Tao so much for giving me the tools I needed to go into these hurtful areas of my life. Thanks from the depth of my Heart!

- Amy G., Calif.
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The situation: a customer of mine called to complain about my wallpaper job. She railed about my incompetence, compared me to her dead father, who 'expertly' hung paper. She wanted to meet me at a model house to show me 'how much better another job was, compared to mine'. Oy!

Ironically, this wallpaper job was completed on the very day I left for Fusion 1 last month, and it’s the first complaint I met up with upon my return.

Inner process: I moved from panic and fear at getting caught at a mistake, to self righteous 'how dare you' anger, to worry at my reputation, and finally doubt of my own integrity. As the meeting date with the woman got closer, the thought of it made my stomach churn with adrenaline and fear.

How Fusion helped: Before the meeting, I brought this situation into my vital organ shen/pearls. I let myself really feel the shaking of fear in my kidneys and the fire of my anger in the liver. It brought up memories of my parents, authority issues, and my tendency to hide emotions from others and boil them inside. I would balance and dissolve these feelings in my perfect fusion weather system. But still, when the time came closer, fear and apprehension, a feeling like stage fright, ruled.

On the day of the meeting: I had a tape of fusion playing in my car and heard one sentence that drilled into me. The 'Po' lung soul is the one we meet the world with. It is constantly required to breathe in the energy of life, to embrace the outer world. I enlarged that pearl of white light and a feeling of peace ran over me. I was in neutral by the time I met the woman.

I explained my choices in doing the job, after assuring her I understood hers. I smiled at her, inner and out smile at the same time. Amazingly, she just let it go. "Thanks," she said," I just wanted to understand why you did it that way. SO much has gone wrong in that house. Now I see what you did and we'll just move on."

How I relate Fusion to my life: It struck me how I frequently have intense inner emotions and fights and talks going on inside. Yet due to protective instincts of my past, I have hidden them from a full expression with others or denied full feelings inside – I was worried about self image. Emotions run hot under my skin surface like volcanic magma waiting for an explosion, or more likely an implosion. My team of Lung souls were hanging around my aura, separated out of body because of this pattern: emotionally stuck ghosts of myself awaiting embodiment and expression in relationship.

My Fusion practice this morning: Strongly guided me to soften into my white pearl souls. My breath feels more connected to my core. I’ve added another layer of bonding between the many fragmented selves in my personality. There is a deeper recognition of these essence aspects in my core being. I can feel that collectively we really desire to achieve a new balance in the world out/in there.

Thanks to Fusion, we are creating that world of harmony and balance, one breath at a time.

- Barry P.
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I started fusion of the five elements this week using your audio tapes. First, I discovered that my heart was very arrogant and did not want to join the dance at first. It felt it was superior to the other shen. It wanted to be separate – the only way it could maintain its sense of superiority over the other organ spirits.

My feel was the fire spirit had compensated for past trauma to the earth and metal spirits. It was taking over some of their work, or trying to at least. Thus it felt it couldn't trust the others. It considered them to be worthless; it resented their weakness. I'm betting that just made the others even weaker.

I also had a powerful experience during the inner weather meditation. I encountered my Shadow. I wasn't hallucinating, it was similar to a dream, but was a vision. I was wide awake, the vision continued whether my eyes were open or closed.

The vision began: I sat down against a tree in the forest. The Shadow appeared and attacked me. I fought briefly with him and then stopped. I stood still as he thrust a claymore sword into my solar plexus. I fell to the ground, dying. Then I pulled the sword from my body and held it in my hand. My hand sent fire into the sword and it burst into flame, and then dissolved. I attacked my shadow with extreme ferocity, fire burning in my body. I struck him again and again.

Shadow then brandished a double-headed axe and swung it vigorously. I used the heavy weight of the axe to my advantage, throwing his body weight significantly with each swing. I fell to the ground and placed a kick to the back of his knee. As he fell I struck the jade pillow point at the back of his head. I hit it several more times after he had fallen. Fire poured from my hands, and I placed them on the jade pillow. My heart fire entered the shadow body, burning demonic looking creatures that hid within.

Shadow was now lying face up, my hands burning into his third eye. I began to move my hands to his heart. He began to struggle, writhing about trying to escape my hold. Knives appeared and fell into his hands and feet, pinning him. He still struggled. My resolve increased and I plunged my burning hands into his chest with increased power. (My solar plexus feels strange during all of this, it was somewhat painful.)

I then see myself with white hair and white clothing – the color of the metal element - swirled with black. I hold a staff of the same colors, with a spinning yin-yang at its head. I plunge the staff into the shadow self's solar plexus. I see many creatures I considered demons. Some are beautiful. Lucifer is the name of the energy. It says we are one. My power is your power. I am you. I feel an immense energy welling up from my solar plexus, filling my whole body, my third eye especially.

I then lose my resolve to vanquish the shadow, and it jumps up. It then leaps into my body. I fall to the ground. Darkness and light dance in many different ways. I see swirls of white and black, mixing, almost playing. I then see little angels above, and "demons" below. I realized that the demons were not demons, save for the negative charge I gave them.

I then asked for assistance of all beings that had my highest interest in mind. Little fairy-like creatures came and began to sew a glowing web over my solar plexus. I asked that they continue to work even after I shifted my focus away. My feel was that earth elemental beings would come to work on the hole within my solar plexus after the web was complete. I then finished the fusion of the five elements meditation, feeling balanced and complete.

- Alex Pizza
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